I feel numb instead of loving

What to do right now

The numbness is not indifference. It is your nervous system shutting down under sustained overload. You went through anger, frustration, guilt, and shame so many times that your emotional system switched to conservation mode. This is burnout. The love is still there underneath the numbness. It will come back when the pressure reduces. If it does not come back, that is worth exploring with a professional. Numbness is a signal, not a character flaw.

What your brain just did

Your body

You feel nothing where love used to be. The numbness is frightening.

Your brain

Emotional shutdown is a protective mechanism under sustained overload. The feeling system conserves by going offline. This is burnout, not indifference.

What this did

The love is underneath the numbness. When the pressure reduces, feeling returns. If it does not, professional support can help. Numbness is a signal worth listening to.